Lost? That would be the understatement of how I feel. I feel over crowded with things to do, held up with expectations, and also confused with what I should be doing. Especially now that I’m a senior, there are just so many things I have to face. So many decisions to make. But why, through all of this, do I feel so alone? Shouldn’t I have an abundance of people to talk to? Those who’ve gone through the same mentality I have been, those who were just as confused as I am now? Parents, friends, counselors? I guess I’m almost embarrassed to share what I feel. So, I’ll do it here. Lost, yes. Confused, more so. What to do, of course. Who I am, definitely. Who am I, and how do others see me. It’s not the insecurity of pleasing others, but do I act according to how I talk. Am I living in a Christ like manner? Can people come to me with questions of their faith? I wish, I truly wish I could say yes and yes. But I’m so unsure. Especially these past two weeks, it has really torn up my inside on who I am. I just…it’s tough. What makes it even more hard is that this is the most important time to know who I am, what I live for, what I will become, but all of that is muffled somewhere. I just need some time to figure things out. But I have no time.